alas. remove thy shoes and enter. please keep trampling to a minimum. there is a trampoline room.

cause thats what i have! no bueno! well school is done for the day but i am sitting here waiting on my beautiful husband to get out of class, for a break, then go back to class, love his heart.

today has been one of the best days that i have had in quite sometime. if youve known me for the past few months consistently then youll know that ive been down like no one's busyness...its nuts. but the weather is beautiful today and everything is line for happiness.
ive been reflecting lately on my priorities and where my motivation stands, if there is any at all. and come to think of it, ive been asking god, GOD PLEASE MOTIVATE ME TO PRAISE YOU, TO LOVE YOU, TO WANT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU, MOTIVATE ME GOD I DONT WANT TO BE TIRED AND BURNT OUT I WANT TO BE ON FIRE!

and then i realize, hey um thats not for god to do. thats all me. and it revived something in me that i cant put into words. its funny though that without hearing someone say something profound, without having a "motivational speech" i just waited for an answer and then i was like oh my gracious, there He is, there is God.
i want to go to god and spend time with me, i dont want it to be forced. and thats how it should be. you cant hold a gun to someone's head and have them profess their love for you, of course they will utter "i love you" its going to save their life, but where is the emotion behind it. there isnt.
god cannot motivate me to go to him, i have to want to, and therefore, glorify him more.

and ill do that. or atleast im working on it.
and that is another addition to this beautiful day.
jesus still loves me.
thats unfathomable. but thank the lord, i would be lost.

be the moon...reflect the son...